I know who my cherished true friends are, however the reverse is usually relatively unknown to me until the truth is revealed, often in a myriad of unexpected ways. Good news is always welcomed however.
I just marked H, a friend into the list of people I can constantly rely on whenever, wherever. And people in this list, I would even gladly die for them (and not just metaphorically speaking).
That horrendous issue from the year before has yet to be expelled from both my mind and soul entirely, I want to bury everything that isn't into a grave and move on with my life. However, uncertainties and denial kept bombarding, clouding my mind - to the point I became such a wreck, forever encased in blurred questions whose answers cannot be seek.
He graciously lent me his facebook account and I entered the profile and world of an individual I had last long left behind suspended in the whirlpool of time. I was mildly surprised by what I saw on his wall, it is the truth he has changed.
But only towards me.
All his comments, it was filled with emotions, light, and a warmhearted laughter with the occasional cracking of jokes. As far as I can remember, what I received was the polar opposite. One liners, random log-offs and multiple retorts with subliminal hidden messages.
As a person, he has failed, in both friendship, morals, pride and dignity.
And I digress, he has took up photography and also an owner of a Nikon D90. What's more disturbing is that his display picture on his facebook is somewhat similar to mine in terms of angle.
Somewhere in between, something went wrong and I don't know what it is.
Someday, maybe, but just not now.